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"Life and death, energy and peace, if I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes, that I have made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I've walked. Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it and above..."

Just the other day I was telling someone how I have no 'go-to' person. You know, the ones who are the first person you call/text when something happens, whether good or bad or the ones that know everything about you, know the real you. The ones that you don't have to start over with, you can just pick up where you left off. I don't have one anymore. For a moment I felt lonely and unloved because those who were my 'go-to' people have left my life, either by my choice or theirs.
Then I realized something..... God, is my 'go-to'. Just when I feel like He left me too, He makes it known that He is there and has been since before I was born. He knows my past, my future and loves all of me no matter what. I don't have to call/text him to share good news, He already knows. I don't need someone or something to make me feel loved. I am loved.
In the Bible, Hezekiah had a moment similar to mine, only, reading his story I learned that God never deserts us. He simply let's go and let's us. He has a path for us and it is ultimately up to us to walk it. Doing so with our heads held high and eyes forward.
Sure, we stumble and fall, but that's when He shows Himself. He's there, guiding us, protecting us and undeniably loving us.
If you know me, you might know my history and that it could be a best-seller book, if it were taken to print. I feel my life is a blessing that I want to share. God has put this in me to share and listen and understand. I am so blessed to have done things I've done and learned things that I have learned. I hope that my blogs can somehow help or inspire people. I believe that God put me through what He did for one reason and one reason only, to share with others and be the person I need to be and can be for whoever it is He has planned for me.
With all this being said, God bless you and you and you!